Friday, April 15, 2011
Just to scream this out of my heart
To start this is a free flowing message straight from my heart. I'm writing this just to realease that depressing thought that has been lingering in my head for days now. I have been feeling really low and useless for no reason at all. If you will look at my life you'll find that everything seems to be fine and the people around me are all very supportive.
I just don't know why I always feel that emptiness inside. I wish I can cry for a reason and for a good one. I want to fall in love again and go down on my knees and beg someone to give that love back. I noticed that my heart has grown really hard and it seems that I'm unattracted to almost everyone. Yes, I feel that sudden surge of libido at times but it always dies down.
I feel jealous because my friends found their partners already and I haven't. Am I ugly? hayyy???? what am i looking for? What do I want in my life? What will make me happy? I hope that I will find some answers in my sleep. I hope that God will show me the way and give me the courage to face whatever it is that I need to face. If I'm doomed to live my life alone then I have to deal with it. I just hate the feeling of waiting when there's no one to wait for.
Posted by Paulo Dromilo Suello at 11:22 AM
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