I realized that sometimes being perfect makes life miserable. Take mine as an example. Just a few days back I have to delay my lunch, skip my breaks, etc just so that I can show to my teammates how to be a model leader--a leader that is always there to help. But I'm tired of being perfect. I want to relax and loosen up. I know it's not a crime to slow down but it seems impossible to do. Just the thought of not being there kills me. My conscience can't handle the idea that I'll be nowhere to find when something uncalled for happens. Say when there's an imporatnt question, n escalated call, anything. Haist! I don't mean to let go of duties and responsibilities, I just want to have the heart to live a life while working, not kill myself at work!
Sometimes I feel that I'm making my world too small for me to breath. It seems liek my life is full of restraints and rules that created a huge wall which eventually trapped me in a rat hole. However, I will never allow that to happen again. From this point forward I will be carefree and will relieve that free spirit in my heart. I know it has been waiting to burst and now is time to set it free. To truly live and be who I was before and who I thought I will be!
Now is the perfect time to loosen up and enjoy what life will offer. Be grateful of whatever comes along and find ways to grow it!
